Nicky
a struggle where I refer to nicotine as nicky some thoughts about it and more.
Nicky you've found me as a lost child and as I tasted you on my lips I knew that I was alone and you loved me like no other you got my mind off things I never knew that you could grip me so close at times I shared tough memories yet you never spoke or judged me you held me even closer and as I awoke from my trance I realized that I slowly buried myself inside you I burnt you yet you numbed me I wondered how I'll ever get you off my mind yet as I grew I wanted you less and less because I knew you became the death of me and then came Mary with her fun times yet she was different shunned upon by society just like you Nicky yet different she was. I sat today resisting you Nicky only to find myself and you locked up together right now all the emotions I learned to bury down were all because of you, I know nobody ever cared yet you made me feel different and slowly we drift apart we slowly go at different directions I need you less and less yet at times. you are the only thing on my mind. how as soon as you seal your lips with mine I feel nothing and at times that's all I've ever wanted yet no more.
Nicky put your lips on mine and tell me I'll be fine
A taste of you on my lips and I was numb
Young and dumb but I needed to escape
Now I'm feeling forced in this relationship this is no better than rape
Nicky you a bitch I am a fiend ahhh but I can't leave you, I don't walk out on the relationships I started you better walk out on me.
Nicky come and numb these emotions Silence that voice in me that never ceases and let these endless memories cease.
I believe the only way to stop an addiction is to replace it with a better addiction something even more addictive, and currently I'm on a journey to find something more addictive to me to replace whatever whatever.
I tell myself things constantly to slowly shift the reality I view now surely I'm fighting nicky
but let me tell you a little funny theory Maybe Dora is an addict, which explains why she talks to a monkey and why she has no perception of depth, and the fox is the nurse of an rehabilitation program who is taking away everything from Dora.
Now while dora is probably being held up I shall go and be very well acquainted with nicky.
