A letter

Today was the day I finally opened the letter I written to myself ten years ago. And boy has it been such a long time since I wrote it that it's hard to accept that most of the things have happened in my life that my ten year old self would have never dreamed off. I have changed so much within the ten years my younger self would not believe it fully. It's given I didn't turn out how I thought I would, the expectation of my younger self have been meet only slightly. I know even as a kid I wanted to fit in be part of a group that I can fully call mine and I have achieved that in a way. I can say that I have friends that actually care about me something my younger self have wished to have. I still am obsessed with reading but now I am more into fictions but as a kid I used to read everything. My younger self always dreamed of going to uni and I did but it wasn't how I thought it would have been. It isn't filled with fun and exciting parties and amazing debates, uni is more or less high-school only difference is the freedom. Ooo while reading the letter I remembered I was obsessed with drawing too tho I haven't drawn since a long time ago. Somethings still haven't changed like my love for music and poetry or my stubbornness. But I have changed a lot too from my physical to my emotional and mental status. I have more body positivity than I had when I was younger.  And now at this age I have learned to take things easy and not to make everything personal.  I have undesirable that people came and people go. I have learned that people are not forever but their memories are. My younger self would be surprised of these changes because I know I used to think that I would be forever with my friends from that time but little did I know we do not even speak now. And that would have broken me as a ten year old but now at this time I know it's for the best. The letter reminded me that I was the same person deep down even though I have made a few changes I am still that child that believed in dragons and warriors, believed that happily ever after does truly exist, believed that although I don't understand how and why things happen I know that they happen for a reason. Personally I think I have learned to be alone and be ok with not having someone all the time. I learned that my solitude is not as bad as I always thought.  The other change is I no longer hate pink, I know it's a shocker but I have grown to like that color though I haven't gotten around to wearing it. I still have the habit of talking with no filter on mouth, though sometimes it gets me in a little bit of problem. I saw through the letter that I have not given my self thatch f an upgrade I guess but just the right amount of change. There are things my younger self have gotten wrong. Like thinking I would have my life together by 25, thinking that I will get rich and be THAT girl. I am working on it do not get me wrong but I a still not there yet. I guess I should write a letter for the future me, maybe this time I won't be so innocent about what I went through.